"Behavior in love shines through everything"

I have been trying to control the anger, hatred and all the other things that you think about when you feel like you are carrying someone else on your back. It is hard to be loving when you ask someone to help they agree and than go to sleep on you. To have something else to complain about they also wanted to go to a friend's house after they got up. I do hold a grudge when I am working than come home and work on the house and people just watch, do not ask if you need help. It is nice to be ingorant of the fact that others point out how lazy you are and you need to help out and it goes through one hear out the other. I am just venting trying to control what has taken over me. To have control of them to stop thm from controlling my feelings. So why do I want to relate anything I want to do by myself as being some in something to hurt her like I am trying to do something against her without just doing it and seeing how it would be. If she does not like it she can change it if she likes that is her choice, I make myself feel guilty for it like it is wrong. Why do I think it is wrong. Because I think I am hiding something from her. I am afraid of judgements. What judgements going to do? Are judgements going to change who I am not, it is only going to change in the eye of the judgementor. So why should anyone be afraid. it is all a illusion in your own head. As I see it the experience would be lost if you did not go and who am I to say not do not experience that as i would not want you to do the same. It is love when you can let someone do what they want and never hold one judgement against it no matter that they do. Is that not what love is the better for the other so the other can experience whatever they like so they can love themself by know what they like. So the love comes full circle when you true love someone. There is nothing but love.