Well I am on my way to New York to drop my turtle off to a good home. My home has been so unstable for the last 4 months it is not fair to her. My girlfriend gave up on her and I have no extra time right now so I have to give her to a better place. It is the start of the end.

She will be way better off since the guy who is taking her in does studies on my diamond back turtle who is naive to the Jersey coastal area.

I will write more about my trip when I get back but for now I have some driving to do.

Well it took me 4 hours to get to Hempstead, Ny. There was a accident on the turnpike and they had one bridge almost closed down. Real fun I must say. Well actually I had fun with it I was writing my thoughts down of all the things that has happen in the last 4 months. It is funny to see things now. I see them so different like I had a blindfold on or like how can I be that stupid. Well I can see things better now with each passing day and writing it downs helps more than anything. I was in traffic for so long I wrote about 10 pages beside being on the phone talking ( I just wish I could have read instead). So the ride was not bad.

I almost got lost there are 2 exit 19 near the college I was going to. I got there and met the professor's friend so I know at least the turtle is now in good hands which brought a tear to my eyes. I will miss her but it is for the best. I had her ever since she was the size of a quarter and she made it with me through the good and the bad. That is one reason why I was sad

She was there when I was stressed out, when I had to much, when I felt incomplete she never left even when things got bad and I mean real bad. No matter what happen or what I did she was still there always there. That is why I am sad she was the last thing in my apartment that still had love in her. I do miss her

I know it sounds silly but it is the way I feel right now. I have lost hope in humanity from what I see and hear just around myself so a animal seems to be more human than some of us. It hurts me just to think that.

ok on the way back I got to listen to classical music. It was nice and relaxing and just listening to the silent. So now I am home.